In the UK, we are over two weeks into isolation. The weather has been nicer than ever and the temptation to go outside even greater.
I have found myself feeling increasingly anxious at the prospect of even going outside for my daily exercise as the virus takes more and more lives. Every time I come back from my daily walk, or run, I get paranoid and find myself washing my hands more than once and detol spraying my watch, phone and glasses. It’s strange, as I’ve only just started to feel like this and I think it is because of the sheer volume of deaths in the UK, and the fact there’s no routine testing for ordinary people.
I thought by now I would be in some kind of routine, but I’m not. I thought I would be filling the hours with all the things I usually don’t have time to do. I rarely find the motivation to do much in a day, but sometimes I have extremely productive days where I do so much. I have been reading a lot and have recently become accepted as a Reedsy reviewer – you can follow my page here.
I am suffering from what I think is hay-fever or the end of a sinus infection (which I am still on antibiotics for) and every sneeze or slight cough and I worry I’ve got the dreaded COVID-19…
I took a whole day off my phone this week and enjoyed it. I now feel even more pressure to be on my phone, replying to messages and reaching out to people and I just find it too much sometimes. It made me feel more relaxed and calm when I didn’t have my phone buzzing in my pocket. I found the lack of Instagram scrolling invigorating and generally just felt refreshed. I have very much been sucked into my phone during isolation and it can’t become a habit.
I’ve been enjoying long and ridiculous baths, where I lay in the warm water for over half an hour reading my book. I’ve been making myself proper coffee in the mornings using the blend we have at work – I took a whole bag of beans home when we closed to save the waste. Enjoying that first coffee in the morning is my favourite thing. If isolation has taught me one thing, it is to slow down and be more mindful of myself and activities that I am doing.
There’s some more stressful things going on in my personal life which I can’t get into. But it’s all very complicated and I feel very out of my depth with what I am dealing with but I keep having to remind myself that it doesn’t need to all be done immediately…
I’ve been writing in my journal nearly every day, usually in the morning but sometimes at the end of the day. I write about how I feel, the news and anything that comes to mind. I love the physicality of actually writing and putting pen to paper, but also like the slow release of mental tension it brings when I write down my thoughts. I even did a sketch the other day!
So, just a round up of things I have been enjoying during this isolation period (that you might too) :
- Long baths with lots of bubbles and a book
- Reading (anything and everything) BUT reading the news once a day, if that
- Proper coffee and slow mornings
- Writing in my journal
- Social media breaks
- Herbal tea in the evening (pukka vanilla chai is my favoutite at the moment)
I hope you are all okay and maintaining a positive outlook, and are also physically well. Stay safe!
My next book review will be, Machines Like Me.